Saturday, April 30, 2011

Downs and ups

Tonight I am down...depressed. Nothing in particular just stressing (normal for me) and wanting to feed the stress. ( also normal)

I ate all my portions of everything I'm allowed hours ago. I've spent the time watching this season's nurse Jackie, and wishing for pretzels, wine, chocolate, anything. My only saving grace is that ben has friends over and I am in another room with the bloodhound. Or maybe that's why I am wanting to raid the kitchen. Lonely ... An excuse... Really just a tough day.

Bloodhound is snoring with his face pressed against my arm. He gets the same food, twice a day, same amount. He accepts it. He is fit and happy. But I'm wide-awake and arguing my internal case for a popcicle or a reasonable amount of gum. ( which would be four pieces)

I am going to give in.
The stress is killing me.
I promise I'll claim what I eat.

2 comments:

  1. 1 cup snap peas. 25 cal
    2 Popsicles. 30 cal
    1 diet root beer 0 cal
    .75 oz beef jerky. 30 cal
    12 pieces gum (disgusting). 30 cal

    Total 115 cal

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  2. Day after: attacked gum again. Got a major stomach ache from it and gas pains. You'd think d avoid it. No .... Gum container was too close to the couch. Just chewed the rest. It's gonna hurt. :-(

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