It took getting sick to gain health

6 months ago my doctor insisted I must loose weight to bring down my 240 cholesterol. I was all " I'll work on it later." so instead oh loosing, I gained. The more I gained, te more I ate and drank. I was thinking "I'll just ask for more meds." My follow up was today. My Wieght is down as is my cholesterol (115) but I didn't do it. My new found health was bought on by my new found illness. A month ago I woke to an intense stomach pain with no appetite. 3 days of that landed me in the er. I went from there to a gastrologist and an upper gi. I have a hiatal hernia, acid reflux which caused the lining of my esophagus to scar. My condition is called Barrett's esophagus. It's irriversable and precancerous. I'm still waiting to see if my gallbladder is also a factor. The affect of these conditions is a compete change of diet and when I eat. No more alcohol. No more chocolate. No greasy or fatty food. No citrus. Smaller meals. No food at all 3 hours before bed. Elevated head while I sleep. No more pain medications beyond Tylenol. So in a month, I've lost about 13 pounds. Without alcohol, I'm not stressed or depressed. My clothes fit great and I'm no longer looking at diet as a payoff to loose, but as my life. I now eat to live. I'm scared. Something in my body has gone rogue. I have to tiptoe around it just to keep it from growing, changing. So this really isn't loosing in plain sight...it's living in plain sight. I refuse to let this define me any more than I let my bipolar affect me. I take meds to be "normal" no now I eat to be normal.

back to dieting

Its been almost a week and its gotten to the easy point, more water. No sugar.no alcohol. Id gained 10 pounds back of.the 30 I lost.I was down on myself so I fed the pain. I'm still not yo yhr.workout phase. I know from the past that as the weight comes off the energy comes in