Working out

I've joined a rec center with my sister. We plan on going together at 10am  M-W-F
Wednesday being a swim day.  I love the facility. There is almost no one there and there are tons of steppers, bikes, treadmills, free weights and resistance machines. I've not had to wait to use anything.

I'm a bit discouraged because it's been weeks since I've hovered between 140 and 142. I'm eating according to the plan, but I know I snack at night more than I should. And we have been eating out a bit - last night was the first time I've had bread in about 4 months. I had a pizza with bread crust and simple sauce, cheese and basil . It was tiny and I got the 1/2 size (I could have eaten much more).

I may have to accept that 140 is the weight my body wants to be. (I don't want to do that)

There are still places where I am fat, and I really want to get it off! My stomach is the biggest area, but also my arms and parts of my back and my thighs. Working out should help to tighten these areas. I'm not one who believes that "well, you are working out and muscle weights more than fat"... Pounds are pounds. Making my body move should ramp up my metabolism and help me get back to the 1 pound a week weight loss. Please please scale show me a number under 140. Help me to steadily loose the rest of the weight by Christmas. I've got 8 weeks (or so) ....

I do feel better at this weight. I can MOVE more. Once tight clothes are too loose. I have a WAIST again. And curves. And my breasts are smaller which is wonderful. I do not like having large breasts. My acid re-flux is almost non existent. And having Ben at his weight (we are now the same weight!) makes it awesome to put my arms around him.

I am afraid of the bounce back once we slip away from the diet. I can't bear the thought of being even 150. I don't want to fail and I want to feel this good all the time.